Can you teach an old dog new tricks?

I've heard that if you have a goal, it's best to state it right out loud so others can hold you accountable for following through on it. Drumroll, please...........

I am going to learn how to cook. OK, not exactly rocket science, but I have zero natural ability to match things together, or season stuff or do anything other than I am the best eater of food ever. I didn't bother learning for years because Brumley was so damn good at it and he actually enjoyed it. I guess I could have payed a little attention rather than drinking wine while he worked. (oops...hindsight's 20/20, huh??) I even tried to talk him into preparing all our meals for me. He could do half of them on Sunday night and the other half on Wednesday. He agreed to it, but never did it, so I am guessing it wasn't such an exciting plan to him--who could blame him?? :)

I know it's not exactly the most sought after information for most, but I will be happy to post the recipes I find, and I would certainly appreciate your sharing your's with me as I start on my new adventure!

Peace be with poor Hunter and Ivey and may their stomachs be made of steel.

regular ol' Friday night at my house now

I've had a bit of a bad couple of days. I guess it's to be expected, but I still don't (expect it) and that sort of pisses me off--to be caught off guard by feelings. It's been going so well for weeks. Bleh!

It's really strange to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that beautiful things are in store for me, and that there is an awful lot of growing, retooling and all that cool stuff happening to me that we don't "allow" to happen when we know who we are and where we're going. Today a coworker was talking about friends of hers who quit their jobs and sold their houses and cars and moved to Turkey. Josh and I had had serious conversations about doing that (although our plan wasn't Istanbul, it was Peru, or S.Africa or somewhere else entirely that I haven't even considered). I still want to, and I may. My goals, dreams, aspirations haven't changed, it's just that the vehicle and my partner are missing. I am still committed to making the world a better place, not only for me and my loved ones, but those who have no one to make it a better place for them. And you.

I have grown to love the sound of the quiet house. Alone is so not me. I kind of find it spiritual, though. It's healing to let things be (nice, huh, since I have no control anyway???) and yet down in my gut I get that things will be good, very good in the future. Just a part of me wants to know what, and how, when and of course WHO, if there is a who in this future. At this point that is irrelevant to me, but I am still curious.

My room looks amazing. It is still missing a few things (obviously), but I love the way it's coming together and am so loving it. Thank you so much Heather, Mom, Jack, Brooke, Matty, Ivey and Hunter. I owe you all big, and I totally know that. I have a big hole in my backyard...this summer come have a partyfest with it, nothing would make me happier!

I know a few of you at least are reading this, because people keep mentioning it to me. Leave me some love, I need the positive reinforcement. :) You never know, you could help make a single mom some money someday.

putting it out there.

I am a single mother. I am no longer a part of a couple. WHEW! It's out there. Brumley and I are not staying together. If you are scanning quickly trying to find out exactly what happened, it won't be here. All that needs to be said is that we have grown apart and have both changed. He is still the same great Brumley and I am still the same great me. We are just going to be that and not be living under the same roof. The kids are good. They are handling it much better than anyone else, actually. We are staying close friends (how could we not after being best friends for 2o-something years??), and are committed to supporting each other through this in every way.

As we continue on and forge ahead in the many, many firsts that will come our way in the next however long, please send love our way. We all will desperately need it.